Even though I take medication to stave off depression, it doesn't always help me. Right now, I'm really been having a difficult time giving a damn about anything. I want to start smoking again and that is a bad sign. I loved being a smoker. I loved the act of it. There was something so sophisticated about it in my opinion. I felt like that was what sophisticated people did. They did in those black and white movies that my parents let me watch as a kid.
Enough of that....what I'm really writing about is getting older. I hate getting older. I feel like I've missed out on so many opportunities. Hell, I was in my mid forties before I ever went to DisneyWorld. To top it all off, I was told by a clerk in a store today that I looked like Phil Silvers. PHIL SILVERS!!! What the F?