Saturday, December 31, 2011

Resolutions That I Probably Won't Keep.

1.  Lose 20 more pounds.
2.  Eat breakfast every morning.
3.  Exercise at least twice a week
4.  Be more organized.
5.  Support the arts more.
6.  Start painting again.
7.  Renovate more of the house.
8.  Uncomplicate my life.
9.  Be more thankful for what I have in my life.
10. Keep up with my grading.

2011: A Retrospective

I know that many bloggers write about the past year at the end of the year, so why the heck not?

2011 was a big year for me only in the sense that I finally wised up and left something that I was miserable in. Namely, the school system that I teaching in. I had been unhappy for sometime and it was seriously affecting my health. My blood pressure was high, I was drinking more often than I usually do, I was taking anti-depressants.  All in all, it was an unhealthy environment. I'm still not too sure if I want to stay in education (at least on a secondary level), but moving to a new school system has done me a world of good. I loved many people at the old school, but there are a lot of people that I hope to never see for the rest of my life and if I do...I hope I can be civil.

Writing a blog on the morning of the day before my birthday (an event I NEVER look forward to) is probably not the best idea, but I'm behind in my blogging. So, a random thought just popped into my head. An Indiana lawmaker wants to set standards as to how people sing "The Star-Spangled Banner"  C'mon, lawmakers, do we have to set standards on everything? Do we really need to waste tax payer money on something like this? Here is a link to the story on the Huff Post. Indiana National Anthem Bill

I discovered that there are a lot of people out there who care about me. I probably knew it in the back of my head, but I didn't really "see" it. I need to be more appreciative of those people. I've never thought much of myself (and probably never will) but I am starting to listen more to what people say even though I feel like any sort of feeling proud of things I do is committing the Sin of Hubris.

Resolutions? I really feel like they are for suckers and are rarely kept, but here goes.  I want to be more positive this year. Start weeding out those who bring me down. Start living healthier (yes, this one might include diet and exercise). Be a better teacher. Be a better father. Be a better husband. Be a better person in general. Work harder and wiser. Blah blah blah.

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That's all I have to say for now.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

The Game is On...

I've spent a good amount of time in my life watching mysteries but I've always been fascinated by detective fiction. My favorite has always been Sherlock Holmes. I grew up watching the Basil Rathbone movies, but as soon as I was introduced to the brilliance of the late Jeremy Brett as Arthur Conan Doyle's consulting detective, I was hooked completely. I've never encountered someone with the absolute spot on take on the character.
That is until Mark Gattis and Stephen Moffat's recent (okay not so recent) rendition of the Holmes legend.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Annual Sickness during the Holidays Begins!

I usually get sick during the holidays because my body just decides to shut down and this year was no exception. Just as I thought I was gpoing to make it without becoming ill...you guessed it.
Actually, it was probably just something I ate. I feel much better today. Plus, I'm not throwing up (which is always a bonus).  Well, that's it for today.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Why Blog? Seems an act of futility, really.

I really want to blog, but I'm not always sure what to write about. I guess I could talk about myself, but that seems so narcissistic.
This has been a really stressful year for me. I left my job of nine years and began working in a new school system. I really have been enjoying it but I sometimes wonder if I should just give up teaching and work in some other industry. I just don't know. I"m not sure what I would be good at. I mean I would love to be in theatre full time or teach theatre full time, but that isn't going to happen anytime soon because a.) there are no theatre jobs out there in my area, and b.) I don't have the education to teach on a university level.
I turn 47 in less than a week and I feel inadequate and don't really feel like I've done a whole lot with my life nor made a difference in general. I feel like my favorite quote from the movie 24 Hour Party People, "I'm a minor player in my own life story."
I'm not saying these things to gain sympathy nor try to fish for compliments. I just continually wonder if I'm ever going to measure up to life.
I don't want to be just a forgotten man, but the way my life seems to be going, I will be. I want more for my life, my wife, and son. I don't want to live in the house I'm in for the rest of my life. I don't know if I want to do what I'm doing for the rest of my life. I want to provide for them.
I'd like to write, but feel uninspired. I don't know where to begin. I have ideas in my head, but every time I try to put them down on paper, I give up because it is just too difficult to continue on or I lose interest with it. Is it laziness? Probably.  I want to do something where I can stay home all day and muse about things and get paid for it. Isn't that ridiculous? I mean really.
Maybe, someday, I'll buy a lottery ticket and get lucky. The prospect of that seems highly unlikely.  I don't really play the lottery. I think it is a waste of money.
Anyway, if you read this blog, congratulations! I think I would have given up a long time ago.